Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Happy Birthday to me! The world is getting better!

A great article about a company that is environmentally conscious, worker appreciative and prosperous.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/kimberly-freeman-brown/you-say-tomato-i-say-awes_b_755550.html

Our happiness levels can be raised! Genes be damned!

http://news.discovery.com/human/happiness-genes-childhood.html#mkcpgn=rssnws1

How we are actually living in one of the most compassionate times in human history. Go us!

http://www.freewillastrology.com/beauty/beauty.main389.shtml

It's been a great half Karinika so far. Looking forward to the next half and all of the Karinika gifts I get to give away!

Monday, October 4, 2010

These lackluster slow times

I've been spoiled by many things in this lifetime: international adventures, a manic sense of spontaneity/serendipity and incredibly supportive parents to name a few. These gifts have given me many things to talk about and many ways with which to define how "special" and "unique" I am. These last few months since finishing my undergrad have been so unsexy and so day-to-day that I think I've been depressed. Very accustomed to the constant demands of school and research once I reached the promised land of graduation and free time I, like many others, didn't know what to do with what I'd wanted once I'd gotten it.

Add to that the irritation I feel at not being "unique" all the time plus no flashy future plans and I cooked up a nice pot of anxiety steeped days. Now as time inches closer and closer to the one scheduled activity I have in the next 365 days (a round trip ticket to Chile for 2.5 months), I have to make the decisions I've been dreading. As I tend to fluctuate between rapid fire decisions and months of dragging my feet, I notice that they are both two sides of the same coin: an intense fear of the decision making process. Aaahhh effin' Libra. :)

Still I'm getting used to the slow pace of working part time, doing yoga, doing early morning boot camps, watching hulu, and trying to get on my bike with these last few nice days of Vermont fall. My ego still rages like hell that I'm not off creating some epic movie-style adventure (or at least acting like it at all times) but I'm tired of trying to act like I'm the shit all the time. It's exhausting...now I understand how it must have been like to be around me during my late teens and early twenties. Whew!

Boy, do I love getting older.