Paranoia

Ever since I was little I've experienced a lot of fear, mostly fear of all the horrible things that could go wrong but never do. It's like life is an episode of Dateline or 20/20 behind every unknown.

I used to feel more prepared because of these worries, as if they were intuitive insights. But they never have been. All they've done is create lots of anxiety and paralyzation. And of course many, many awkward moments.

I'm playing with these thoughts, not giving them control and just sitting through the discomfort of the unknown. I'm hoping the unknown is more interesting than the repetitively false dangers in my brain.

So far, so good.